"Sitting in restaurants thought we were so grown up but I know now that we were not the people that we turned out to be..."

I have been completely terrible about this whole updating thing. I blame being lazy and amazing roommates :) God is so good! I say that honestly because looking at what he has prepared by bring the four of us together is AWESOME!  I could not have picked better roommates, but God knows what he is doing.  He even knew that the four of us would all have enough of the same humor to feel the need to watch How I Met Your Mother together!

I did a lot of reflecting yesterday about how amazing God's timing is.  It started a few days ago, but Saturday is when it really hit me.  I got to spend a lot of time with a dear friend of mine.  Although we get together at least once a week to catch up there are some stories that take us a while to tell each other.  I was driving her back to the dorm on Saturday and we began the conversation about how Suz, Rhia, Rikki, and I all became roommates.  See the thing is - Suz and I had nothing to do with it.  It was all about God and his timing.  The way things fell into place last semester was ridiculous... in fact the craziness starts back when I came into the apartment.  Long story short there... I was suppose to be an RA, but God was like no you aren't going to be an RA... You are going to become roommates with Suz because she is going to need you spring of 2010 and you have to know each other before than or else you won't trust one another.

The amazing part of this story is both Rikki and Rhia tried out to be RA's this semester and they were not chosen.  Normally you could just say that is because the people who interviewed them didn't have what they wanted... I don't believe that for a second.  I know that God knew that both of them would be here, even if Suz and I took wrong turns to get there first.  Anyway - point being my roommates are amazing and God is the only reason that they are in my apt.

My roommates and I also have very similar taste in music and Rikki made me a cd in 5 minutes because I needed to get on the road, but one of the songs was Merry Happy by Kate Nash.  The song has been stuck in my head for days... DAYS!  But one of the lyrics is the title to this blog today and it encompasses how I have been feeling.  "Sitting in restaurants thought we were so grown up but I
know now that we were not the people that we turned out to be..."

So one of the reasons that this has been stuck in my head is because it is truth for me.  I think about the times at SMC where I thought I was so grown up, but I wasn't.  I'm not saying that I am now, but I'm more grown up than I was.  The person at SMC is not the person I turned out to be, the people I was friends with are not the people that I surround myself with still, but they are still a part of me.  Each of them changed me in some way.  Some of those ways were good, but they came in a bad package.  Either way I flashback to a time when I was sitting with my boyfriend at the time and I know I was thinking that I was grown up because I had a boyfriend and that some day I would be married to him... we see how that turned out.

The truth is that I'm glad I haven't turned out to be that person I was.  I'm glad that I do no surround myself with those same people.  Not that they are bad people, but those weren't the people they turned out to be.  God is all knowing, and he knows us better than we could know ourselves.  I struggle sometimes with not being friends with the same person since the fifth grade, but God has been faithful.  He has provided me with amazing people that change my life on a daily basis and for that I am thankful.  He knows what I need and he provides for me.

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."
Psalm 139:13,14